Jahine A. Arnold: 2009

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Quick update

Traveled to California in hopes that I can receive some financial assistance. Had to be evaluated by 4 different doctors, we'll see what happens. Not much else has been happening recently. I will write more of an update soon. Thanks for reading.

Thoughts

Today I sat here and thought to myself....I am 35 years old and I need to start thinking of creating a will. I never thought that day would come this soon. No matter how positive I am about this whole situation, there is some possibility that I might go down because of my condition. I am positive about my future, but I am also realistic. Sometimes when we think of everyday life we take for granted life itself. Maybe we think too much of our problems, our relationships, our jobs, and other people in general. But do you realize that none of these things exist when you die? Would it matter to me what problems I left behind, I cannot do anything about them if I am gone.

Something else I thought about. Wouldn't it be interesting if you could watch peoples reaction to your death, maybe hear their thoughts, and what they really think or thought about you. Did they really like you? Did someone do something so terrible to you and you never found out, but now they are admitting to it in their head? I am sure in that moment of "truth", so much would be revealed. It might be sickening. There may be some happy realizations. Who knows....

Til that day I am going to keep pushing forward, learning, growing, and staying focused on my most important thing.....ME.

Jahine A. Arnold

Saturday, January 24, 2009

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Quick update

Your most important thing?